Hunting My Father's Killer

[View in Browser]( [Men's Health]( [SHOP]( [MVP EXCLUSIVES]( [SUBSCRIBE]( [Alternate text] [Hunting My Father's Killer]( [Hunting My Father's Killer]( [There is something oddly comforting about reading my father's autopsy. Maybe it's the good news: "The skin is normal. The esophagus is without lesions. The stomach is unremarkable. The small intestines contain mostly undigested food particles." Even quitting smoking 17 years before had paid dividends: "There's only mild emphysema." Or perhaps it's the good that came out of it: "The patient had most]([organs donated](, including kidneys, heart valves, liver, eyes, parts of spleen and lymphatic tissue, bladder, prostate, and most of pancreas." My father's death, we know from the [Center for Organ Recovery](, ultimately improved the lives of a half-dozen men and women in the Northeast. Or maybe, probably, it's that it brings me back to the exact moment in time when everything changed. His life, suspended instantly. Mine, altered forever. Yet I feel a sense of potential. Of what might have been had he been holding the railing, as Mom instructed twice. Of how things might have gone differently had we understood what was happening inside his brain that day, or even over the previous five years. Or, frankly, if anyone in the family had bothered to wonder what killed his aunt and two uncles, brought his grandmother to stare-into-space dementia, and put his own mother in a nursing home six years before, where she lay that fateful day unable to speak or move. [READ MORE]( [Alternate text] [Alternate text] [DJ John Summit Opens Up About His Social Anxiety and How He Handles It]( [DJ John Summit Opens Up About His Social Anxiety and How He Handles It]( [The producer takes us inside his mind and shares how he tries to find Comfort in Chaos amidst his success.]( [READ MORE]( [3 Hip Thrust Variations to Get Your Glute Gains]( [3 Hip Thrust Variations to Get Your Glute Gains]( [Level up from bodyweight moves and build your lower body by adding weight, changing your tempo, and getting explosive.]( [READ MORE]( [Alternate text] [Alternate text] [Recover Like a Pro With These Massage Guns]( [Recover Like a Pro With These Massage Guns]( [Recover like a pro. Save like a pro.]( [READ MORE]( [Step Into Success With These Business Casual Shoes]( [Step Into Success With These Business Casual Shoes]( [Your days of stiff dress shoes are over.]( [READ MORE]( [Alternate text] [Alternate text] [Found: A Chef-Approved Meal That Builds Big Muscle]( [Found: A Chef-Approved Meal That Builds Big Muscle]( [Michael Chernow's coal-fired steak is everything.]( [READ MORE]( [Alternate text] [My Worst Fear at Work Came True—and It Made Me Better at My Job]( [My Worst Fear at Work Came True—and It Made Me Better at My Job]( [Actor Zane Phillips describes the mental shift that's helped him survive professional rejection.]( [READ MORE]( The Best of Men's Health [How This Guy Cut His Cholesterol in Half—Naturally]( [How This Guy Cut His Cholesterol in Half—Naturally]( [READ MORE]( [Finally, Some Good News About Alzheimer's]( [Finally, Some Good News About Alzheimer's]( [READ MORE]( [READ MORE]( [READ MORE]( [Alternate text] [ESQ Fragrance]( [LiveIntent Logo]( [AdChoices Logo]( Follow Us [Unsubscribe]( | [Privacy Notice]( | [CA Notice at Collection]( Men's Health is a publication of Hearst Magazines. ©2024 Hearst Magazines, Inc. All Rights Reserved. This email was sent by Hearst Magazines, 300 West 57th Street, New York, NY 10019-3779